Work

Work, work, work. I only have one thing to say about it. Customer-service. That's what we're all about. That's our #1. I LOVE customer-service, personally. If you know me, you know that I talk to any & everybody! Seriously. The one thing I don't like about it? When the customers are rude. Seriously. I work for some pretty great people, so I don't want to be rude back & make 'em look back or nothin'. Even if I worked for someone that wasn't so great, you're not suppose to be disrespectful to customers! I've learned from this job to be more polite to cashiers, etc, because I get people saying rude remarks to me almost every day & its just something that I've learned NOT to do because I know how it feels to be trying to do your job & have people talk shit.

But ANYWAYS, on top of that. I'm leaving pretty soon. Which sucks because that means I'll have to quit my job! *tear* I lo-lo-love my job! I'm cool with everyone I work with, plus its close to home! Down the street from muh crib, nawmeen? Lol, jk.

One thing I don't understand, not about MY job, but jobs in general... If people are looking for a job & don't have time to do it. That, or they hate their job within the first like, week. That's lame! I har a lot of my friends complaining about their jobs & what not. I swear to God, I'm the only teenager that's in LOVE with my job (and my boyfriend!) But I'm jus' sayin... Like, you know? Its sooo hard to even look for a job in Kitimat/Kitamaat, nevermind GET one! I just mean, guys, if you're even CONSIDERED for a job around here, you should be happy. Especially as a teen? Money is money to us. A lot of us don't even know what to spend it on, but its always nice just to have it there for whatever you decide you may need it for.

*ahem* Aaanyways... Hmm. I'd finish blogging & talk about something else too, but I'm SO STRESSED OUT right now!! I'm frustrated & confused & mad. I just wanna sleep!! Hopefully when this month ends, things get on track. I haaate this feeling! Oh! Another reason I love work? It gets my mind off this shiiit.

Sleep tight, my fellow humans.

SINCERELY,
JENNIFERMARIE *

ARE YOOOU?

ARE YOU A LIAR? Hmm. Dumb question, right? Everyone is a liar. And for those of you who like to think you're not... think again, because you probably are.

Now, what defines a liar, you may ask? Simple! Someone who tells a lie. Which, I'm sure everyone has done before. Nobody likes liars, though. I mean hey, I don't! But the fact of the matter is, people lie. Its like in our blood, its human nature.

There are, however, different levels of lying I believe! The one who just do it maliciously are the ones that people are so quick to label as the liars... When even simple liars should be called out just the same, but nobody thinks about those now, do they? It doesn't matter if you are telling the lie just to protect someones feelings, or probably more than likley, protect yourself. Its all the same!

The bible says we shouldn't lie. But did the bible know how freakin' hard it is not to lie?! Sheesh! Well... They DID say bare false witness. Hmm, maybe thats the difference. Maybe there is a certain form of lying that is acceptable? Maybe some lies are justified? I really don't know, but its all very confusing. I know that some of you reading this don't even wanna admit to yourself that you're filthy little liars! All of you! Haha, but I will be the first to say, that yes. Yes, I do lie! Okay?! So, shoot me...

I really do try NOT to at any possible chance that I get. But you know, lies are just so much easier than the truth to give and recieve. I can also admit, that sometimes I don't mind being lied to. There are somethings that I just don't want the truth about because it would hurt too much... Does that sound weird? I know it may sound a little strange, but that's just how I feel. Suck it!

I know the name of this blog is "Jennifer Speaks the Truth." Haha. The fact has remained true! I have never lied in this blog. That may be due to the fact that I know certain people in my life don't read my blog. Only those who have absolutely nothing to do with it. That's one of the reasons why I feel safe in revealing my truth to all of you on here.

I don't know, man. Its all very confusing. Sometimes I think I should just right all my wrongs and start telling everyone the hard truth. But then again, if I told that about EVERYTHING I've ever done... I would probably be in jail or something, lol. No seriously, I would. Like, seriously! But that's another story for another day :)
My point is; I know that lying is wrong, but you know?! I feel like some lying is necessary. I feel like some isn't. Its up to us to decipher what is best. *sigh* I know its not gonna be easy... To tell you the truth, its better to just not get your self into situations where you would feel you need to lie about. If thats the case, you know you're doing something wrong... And that's just... Wrong!

Well! Guess that's it for now. Holla at me, babies! Laaayter!

Boys & Girls... and Lil Wayne

Boys, boys, boys.. and girls, too.

Its come to my attention that there are many people in this world. Yep! Many boys, many girls, many men, many women.

Lil' Wayne (who I hate to admit that I love!) has this song called "Every Girl." There he is, talkin' bout how he wishes he could smash every girl in the world, which first of all, is gross. EVERY GIRL? Come on, Wayne, have some standards! But secondly, that really is how these guys think... That you can never have too many girls. Their goal in life is to get with as many as possible, no matter what. Now, boys have the advantage over us girls in the fact that they have NO emotions! They can do it to everybody they want and just keep on pushin. Suuure they may SAY they have a main chick, but blah! On a real, boys do NOT usually give a crap about all that. Now girls, on the other hand? Some have these things called "emotions" in which they feel more attracted to a particular guy over the other. With girls, its about quality rather than QUANTITY. With boys, its the opposite. Clearly.

Bullshit Rule #1: "Girls are supposed to be the ones that get attached. Guys aren't." Who made these silly rules? Which brings me to another thing...

Relationships, marriage & commitment. What's it all about? How are people supposed to pick just ONE whole person out of billions? And once we are in a relationship, we're stuck? Until someone messes up, that is... Why can't people just live life? Actually, some people do live life. Some people don't. I guess if you want to be a life liver, you have to find other life liver's and leave the conservatives alone.

Hmm, I just get frustrated from time to time by all the rules of life, the world, all these people with their judgements... I say, if it ain't harming nobody, what's the harm? EXACTLY!

So yeah, thats my advice for everyone out there - roll with your own kind. Rolling with an opposite & trying to mush your views together can be very messy and painfull. Yeah, that's some pretty good advice if i do say so myself! :) Just know what you're getting into, that's all. If you know you are a certain way, don't try to fool people into thinking you are another way. BE YOOOU! Be happy! Do what you want in life, just make sure everyone is on the same page, lol. And if they're not? Make sure you can handle it on your own. But still make sure you let others know what's happening! That's the problem with the world today... no communication!

RANDOM P.S: I LOVE how Barack Obama is still on the cover of EVERYTHING! :)

Take care, guys.

April 1st, 2009

Okay, I get to school & chill on the couches for awhile in the Councillors room. I start walking to class & I come to Echo Hallway. I was wondering what the "April Fools" prank would be this year & my question was now answered. Disgusting.

Actually, it wasn't like DISGUSTING, but seriously people have to waste their time like this? A few students broke like 24 eggs in the hall and threw a smoothie against the wall. Eggs & egg shells ALL over the floor & smoothie running down the walls, making a puddle on the floor.

Its pretty lame. It wasn't even a good joke, lol. I was hoping something amazing would have been planned. I had a few ideas, but its my final year & I'm not finna get suspended in my LAST year! Nuh uh. I'm too chicken to risk anything right now :)

And I have a strong feeling, there's going to be some genius to pull the fire alarm... To top THAT off, we got fresh new snow today. Why can't people pull the fire alarm in warm weather? It'd be much more intelligent!

But yeah, I'm in First Nations Art & I'm on my way to Math any minute now. I have a test! Yay! Wish me luck...

Take it easy, guys.
If you hear of any good April Fools pranks, or jokes, or anything, comment & let me know! :) I feel like having a good laugh today. Knaawmean?!

* Jennifer Marie *

"Change Me."

So, I have been listening to this song "Change Me" off of Keri Hilson's new album. After I just started listening to it, I started thinking about the actual meaning of the song...

There's plenty of people who get into relationships and then break up. Duh. But normally the break up is because one person is either too controlling or trying to change how the other one is or acts. I would just like to know why...

Why would you waste your time? Why would you waste time getting into a relationship if you don't like how the person is? If you have an idea of changing your partner, or anything of that nature, why would you even mess with them? It makes NO sense!

If you aren't compatible in the beginning, and you don't want somebody uncompatible, why would you waste your time? Seriously?

Now, I do understand that sometimes people can seem amazing in the beginning, then change. Sometimes it takes time to see their true colors, sure, but I just don't understand. Another thing I don't understand is when people say they "fell out of love." How can that happen so quickly? There has to be a sign, or some sort of situation that happened to make it that way, right?

Partners shouldn't have to camouflage who they are to be within that relationship. I'm jus' sayin!

* Jennifer Marie *

People That I ADMIRE (Celebrities)

In NO alphabetical order:
Joey Stylez, Lloyd Banks, OPRAH, Chris Brown, Kid Cudi, Steve Urkel, Barack Obama, Avril Lavigne, Will Smith & Pink!

Annoyance

Damn straight. You know what bugs me? Kay, there's this guy in one of my classes & he thinks he knows EVERYTHING. And, uh, he doesn't. He's always trynna tell me what to do & how to do it. When someone asks me to do something, he'll rush to it before I get the chance. Kay.. This blogs already boring. But yeah, that shit pisses me off!

Let's talk about the party, shall we? Craigs 19th. I thought it would be one of the best parties I've ever been to... Wrong! I mean, I know my brother was going to have highlights, because he has fun no matter what - plus, the party was FOR him. But I just expected more than what I got. As usual. Hmphh.

But anyway, the party started off good. Then people started getting HAMMED. I tried having a good time & not think about the negativity, but shit happens! Everywhere I looked, there was some new shit going on. Arguing, fighting, collapsing, drugs, people getting together, barfing! Eww. But anyways, it was like I tried to enjoy myself, but I can't seem to do that unless everybodys okay. Which... FUCKS ME OVER.. Every time. I try helping or talking to people & blahhh. But people seemed to be having fun. That was a plus, of course.

I mean, over all, it was good. Everyone had fun (like I mentioned) and all in all, it was a memorable night. But I just mean, without the fighting, arguing & puking, lol, it would have been supercalifragilisticexpialadocious. Yep! I totally spelt that wrong, by the way. But I use to know how to spell it.

Screw this, hands are hurting. This blackberry seems heavy right now, even though its like 5g. Kay, now I'm not talking about anything.

Sooo yeah, check up for my next blog. Take care, douche bags. Paayce.

"Sometimes it's hard to breathe. Just knowing you found me."
* Jennifer! <3